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MOTHERHOOD

The Second Time: On the closing of Grady Memorial’s maternity ward

2026-06-23

I was scrolling through Chrome last night when I saw that OhioHealth was going to close the maternity wing at Grady Memorial Hospital. The unit is scheduled to close on July 31.

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MONEY

The Poverty Tax.

2026-06-19

I woke up this morning and tried to call my husband and the call didn't go through. My phone service's automated voice was on the other end in his stead,...

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FAITH

You Are the Universe Experiencing Itself

2026-06-18

I was watching a YouTube video by Aperture and the narrator was talking about a philosopher called Spinoza. The title of the video was "You Are the Universe...

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WRITING

No Forwarding Address

2026-06-16

A department in my brain has gone on strike. I don't know which it is and what its grievances and terms are. I just know that I have been sitting down trying...

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MOTHERHOOD

It's BLIPPI.

2026-06-12

My daughter loves watching Blippi. She watches him without any distance or analysis and enjoys every minute of the show. She laughs when he laughs. She points...

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RELATIONSHIPS

The Lot.

2026-06-11

I don't have money to buy a car right now and I don't need it anyway, but there is this man on the Great Lakes Hyundai ad who makes me feel like I do, which is...

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GROWTH

There Is No Self-Actualization.

2026-05-31

My property manager has been doing something that has been irritating me and the experience is really humiliating. Don't get me wrong I know it's not personal....

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FAMILY

Behind It Is Sisyphus

2026-05-28

I was filling out a job application on safari when the tab froze. I decided to switch to chrome and just before I could paste the link into the search bar, an...

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RELATIONSHIPS

Set in Stone

2026-05-27

I have a moral compass and an outline of how things and people should be. When I meet someone, I construct their personality in my head based on how they...

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MOTHERHOOD

Oopheliaaaa

2026-05-24

Ophelia — The Lumineers

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HOME

My Zillow.

2026-05-23

I am looking for a house with a glass roof. The master bedroom ceiling should be open so when I lie down at night the last thing I see before I sleep is the...

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CONNECTION

Dion.

2026-05-21

The first time I went to the corner store next to my dorm, I bought a gallon of milk and a loaf of farmhouse bread. The total cost was $8 and some change....

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WRITING

Send. Delete. Send. Delete.

2026-05-20

I have been writing on this quiet corner of Substack almost everyday. I don't know, but here it feels like a place where I can pour my heart out with no...

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SELF

I Only Cry at Legends.

2026-05-15

America happened.

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FAITH

God, When?

2026-05-13

The world used to end a lot for me. Apocalypse level type of ending.

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SELF

At the Threshold

2026-05-12

I am a woman on the sofa wondering where my life is headed. My body feels deeply suspended in something I cannot name. I have no sense of time and day. It's...

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MUSIC

Drowning Into Another Love by Tom Odell

2026-05-12

Another Love begins and the large gateway to my soul opens wide. A million emotions flow through me like a river with an endless supply of water. I cannot pin...

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MIND

I Still Don’t Know Where Here Is

2026-05-11

My husband is going to physical therapy so I ask if I can tag along as I am bored staying in. The neighborhood where the clinic is located is very densely...

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MOTHERHOOD

Je Suis Très Fatiguée

2026-05-09

I recently asked why I am writing. I am stuck between a world of understanding and clarity but my emotions don't fit. The writing has been a way to escape this...

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SURVIVAL

Almost Everything, Almost.

2026-05-08

I want to be rich.

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FAMILY

The Beautiful Ones Have Now Been Born.

2026-05-08

My mum has always been more of a friend than a mum. She is deeply empathetic so it's not that she didn't try, the friend dynamic just came naturally to her....

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FAMILY

Still Standing, Walking the Mile

2026-05-06

I am in the back seat of our car with our children. We are driving to the next town over to pay a traffic ticket, just one of those mundane errands. It's...

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HOUSING

Acquainted with Suffering.

2026-05-05

I just went through a very quiet fear, in a small office across a desk. Our property manager had just said no to the community action agency that had come to...

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SELF

Are You Ok?

2026-05-05

Are You Ok?

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MOTHERHOOD

I Am Very Concerned About This Woman

2026-05-05

I am four months old. I have very few concerns. Hunger, sleep, and wet diapers. She knows. I was there when she got the instruction manual. The nurse told her...

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MIND

The Sea of Thought

2026-05-03

I am drowning in a sea of continuous thought. I can see the thoughts in real time. My hands and body are doing normal tasks meticulously like someone who is...

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FAMILY

The Mannerless Laughter

2026-05-02

I have this mannerless laughter that doesn't read the room or wait for permission. It usually just arrives exactly at the absolute worst moment and I genuinely...

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SURVIVAL

A Birthday, Three Messages and A lot Going On

2026-05-01

2:42 a.m. It's my birthday, a step closer to the third floor. I am lying on my bed, sandwiched between my three-year-old and my four-month-old, staring at the...

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FAMILY

Beautiful and Cruel April

2026-04-30

I am sitting in a Costco parking lot at the moment, and the world is orange.

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FAITH

The Automaton Who Knows

2026-04-30

I just watched a YouTube video on existential nihilism. The lady was explaining, that life has no inherent meaning. She described the universe as indifferent,...

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SELF

The Closet

2026-04-30

It's now 1 am and everyone in the house is sleeping peacefully… the baby is making those peaceful sounds babies make when they are sleeping and feeling safe...

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