Drowning Into Another Love by Tom Odell

Another Love begins and the large gateway to my soul opens wide. A million emotions flow through me like a river with an endless supply of water. I cannot pin point which specific emotions they are. It's a flood. I smile and my baby smiles back and I feel her smile. The song continues and I can literally feel the notes, I fall into the bottomless pit that is the song.

Sadness is the first to arrive. I feel the connection with the words and the beats. At this point I am envisioning a scene where two people are lying in bed looking at each other saying nothing at all but understanding exactly what the other person is saying. They have allowed themselves to be completely vulnerable and in that vulnerability something sacred passes between them. They are both present and they understand that some things are too deep for words. I start humming the tune and it settles like something very close and familiar.

At exactly minute 1.40, the beats rise. My spirit is yanked out of the sadness and a rush of hope runs through me. All of a sudden the room becomes bright and warm and there is no single word in my mind. My whole being cascades into the rhythm and emotions and my body releases whatever hormone it releases when it finally lets go. I am drowning in an abyss but I am not fighting for air. I am one with the water. Eyes open. Everything dissolved.

Tom's words return and now they are speaking to me. I am receiving the vulnerability and something in me feels shielded and protected. The soul connects with the words without resistance. When he sings "all my tears have been used up on another love", I am not wounded. I understand. I feel seen with nothing to barter in return.

At minute 3.03 the beats return. They are the same beats as minute 1:40 but they are not entirely the same. There is so much intensity and my body refuses to sit still. My feet begin to involuntarily tap and my body is moving without coordination. I am the same person who cannot dance to save her life but here I am, seated, dancing if that's what we are calling it. The song is moving through me like something I consumed. I feel so high on it and my mind feels like it has discovered a hidden knowing. The beats intensify and I willingly go under. Just as I am about to drown in the deep end, the song ends and I am brought back into existence.

All this, for a song about being depleted.